Biopsy results day. 6 days after surgery

Ok. Today is quite nerve wracking. 

So many answers. I'm so excited to see the doctor, but also scared. 

Do I have cancer (praying to God every day that I don't) or do I not have cancer? Meds after this or surgery again? Surgery through my nose or my skull? Going home tonight or do I still need to stay here?

I don't mind any of those options besides the cancer. 

My babies need me. I am their life support. The 3 of us are very close. Shaya sleeps in my room most nights still. She also showers with me most days. (Lol.) We have our own little ways and routines.  Rease is my little partner. He is the man of the house!

My tumor seems to be in too difficult of a spot to remove it all. Many nerves (hense the numb face) and my carotid artery are right there. So it can't be cancer.  It needs to be something that some medication or radiation can get rid of...and we can call it a day!

We all know that whatever comes my way I am going to deal with...but I like to think that I am not giving cancer the chance to happen. 

Say a prayer,  wish me luck,  do a little dance. Whatever it is you do for good vibes, I need them today!

Update: so as my mom and I pulled into the hospital and drove up and down the entire parking garage to finally find a spot, I  get a call from my doctor's nurse saying the results aren't in.  Boo...not happy. We are scheduled for Tuesday at 12:30 now. 

We went inside to use the bathroom and decided to go to my doctors clinic office and make sure it was okay for me to drive the 6 hours home. In there the lady contacted the nurse and she said yes she hasn't changed her mind since I've talked to her a bit ago. Ok, I understand that but do you know how far home is from here?!  I told my mom 'lets just go home.' I was a bit upset with the nurses attitude toward us. 

Off we went and as we walked through the cross-walk that separates the clinic from the hospital, we ran into Dr. Kassam! I was so happy to see him! He told us it was okay to go home. He said the biopsy went out for more extensive testing.  

What the heck does that mean? Not sure what it is? They know its cancer and want to figure out more about it? 

Ugh. Great. 

Nothing like waiting at least 5 more days. So, we headed home, but at least we had the peace of mind that Dr. Kassam said it was okay to go.